Heart to Heart: Courage in the Unknown
I share about courage, but rising from a beautiful story of new life that is ongoing life. On the
last day of a lengthy visit with my 21 month old granddaughter, a visit of love never lengthy
enough, I pulled up a chair next to her as she ate her lunch in her booster seat. She had a
cranky morning and the culprit was her endless energy to play and hear the grandparents read
to her. She was slowing down in her eating, gazing in one direction and her head began to tilt a
bit from her tiredness. I put an arm around her back and head. In a minute she went to sleep,
sound asleep, with her head leaning on my shoulder cuddled to my neck. I melted in love.
We took the tray off her booster seat and I carried her to the sofa where I laid down with her
nestled against me. I heard her breathing. I felt her breath on my neck. Her fingers would
move on my other shoulder. She was in complete utter comfort, the kind of comfort that wraps
us all in love.
I realized she was lying on my chest and our two hearts were beating right next to each other:
I was reminded that physicist Brian Swimme and Cosmologist Thomas Berry took me in
a joint dialog book from Big Bang to the simple statement that, “The Universe is Love.”
The Monk Thomas Merton who spoke of meditation as contemplation called us to acts of
Love which is Being, not an ego but a “Heart of Love” in the universe.
This morning I heard on a radio show that “When we cease to see each other eye to
eye, bad things happen.” Apologies for not knowing the wise person who said this.
Words, studies, thinking, does not always bring us to our deepest moment of life in meditation.
I taught World Religions at the college level, and have mystically related to a number of
religions and called them my own. Yet, it is not the words, high thinking, even the religiosity
that brings us to true Being and self-love. Self-love is at the core of courage, something we all
need sometimes in our lives because life can be difficult as well as beautiful.
I have cancer. Stage four. Incurable. Pain. Running out of options. I live, I have joy, I laugh, I
love, I will not surrender to an inevitable death, because I will continue to live. It is the Love of
the Universe, the touch of another being – my beautiful 21 month old granddaughter that has
taught me ultimately that the touch of each of us is the touch of our hearts and our hearts are
the Universe, and in that universe we shall travel an eternal path of light, love and joy.
No matter our difficulties, pain, suffering, it all melts away as our hearts melt together in life. So
we are told by a physicist, cosmologist, and spiritualist, but so we all experience heart to heart.
As the lyrics to an off Broadway show song called “Weather The Storm” go, “It’s the courage
we show, facing things we don’t know, it’s the way that we weather the storm. ”Please join me
in this great Universe, this life of love, this touch of another, for this is where I found courage!
You are enough.